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IN MEMORY OF MY SWEET, PERFECT BEAUTIFUL IRENE TORIA




This picture was taken of Irene and Cassie literally 7 days before Irene went into her coma and was diagnosed. You could not tell she was so deathly ill....

This webpage is here to enlighten you all about a very special little angel named IRENE TORIA who became an angel the day she was born January 29,1998 and was given her wings and promoted to Heaven on February 1,2000. Irene had Infantile High Risk Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia with a 411Q23 marker. She suffered two barin hemorrhages as aresult and sustained remission after only 13 days. Irene relapsed on 9-21-99 and was taken to Duke 11-09-99 and was trying to prepare for a Bone Marrow Transplant but was unable to attain a second remission. I was lucky to have known Irene for as long as I did, I am blessed by her everyday. Please read about her stay here and sign the guestbook so I know you stopped by.







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Thursday, January 19, 2006 8:36 PM CST

I sit here looking at this web page and just can't believe that Irene would be turning eight years old in 10 days and then three days after that she will have been gone for six years.

It hardly seems possible. She will be gone THREE TIMES LONGER than she was alive.

This past Christmas was a tough one for our family. I am not sure why though. None of us have gotten used to the fact that she is not here any longer I don't think. While I was unpacking the Christmas stuff I found some pictures of Irene that somehow had been put in there. These were pictures I haven't seen in quite awhile. While I was looking at them a thought occurred to me. I took some pictures of Irene during her last month alive and when I went to develop them they were blank. I had probably three or four rolls that no images were on. I have always wondered if they "disappeared" to save me from the agony of seeing her looking so very ill. I think that may very well be the case because I didn't want to remember her sick but I didn't want to not take photos of her. I know that seems odd but I didn't want her sister to see her that way. I know that since Cassie is older it wouldn't scare her as much but even still I want her to remember Irene waking her up in their cribs in the morning giggling. That hasn't happened in eight years but Cassie still talks about it to this day.

I see her face light up when she recants that time. She will tell Scott and he intently listens as she tries to get him to know her sister. All the pictures in the world could never get him to know her but Cassie's stories bring her back to life and he really feels as if her knows her because of that. I am so grateful for him in our lives.

Since I met Scott I have found new reasons to smile and truly, truly enjoy life again. It is not that I don't miss or grieve for Irene but he along with Cassie have made it possible for us to continue on in life until we are to be reunited again.

The holidays always solidify that her memory will never be forgotten because my family never excludes her from them. We still buy ornaments for her and will buy toys/clothes and bring them to the hospital in her name as a donation.

With Irene's birthday and anniversary so close together I just don't breath for those days. I am not sure if it is easier to have them pass together or to have them separate. We try to take some time away and just spend it as a family to ease the pain. I honestly think Irene would have wanted that. I see people on TV that are close to dying and they always say don't cry for me and if she could have talked I am certain she would have said that to us.

I can close my eyes and see her in the hospital bed just hours before she left us and her green eyes gazing up at me as if to say "I am going home mommy. I want to stay with you but I need to go home now. I love you so very much." I will never get that image out of my head.

Dear Lord please give my sweet angel a kiss and a hug for me. Cradle her in your arms and tell her how much we love and miss her. Caress her head and hold her tight for me, please. Do all the things for Irene that I long to do. Tell her that until I take my last breath on earth she is always on my mind and forever in my heart. Tell Irene to play until her little heart is content and to take care of all the puppies and kittens in Heaven with her. I know her GG and Aunt Florence are up there loving her for me until I get to be with her again. Please ask her to show herself in a dream to me and let me see that she is happy and not missing us too badly. I would so dearly love to see what my little lady looks like now. Lastly, thank you for taking care of her for me. I know your love feels her heart always.

Love,

Torrie and Cassie

PS I pray for a blessed New Year for everyone.

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Links:

http://spreadingsmiles2.com/irene/irene.htm   Irene's smile quilt
http://www.heavenlylights.homestead.com/   Irene's star is on page 1
http://www.AnniesFlowersAndScents.com
   This is simply a fabulous thing for Anne to do. She started this in honor of her daughter who is currently off treatment for ALL. Please take a minute to look at the wonderful candles. Irene's is Irene's Invigorating Herbal.



 
 

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