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Thursday, February 3, 2011
Well... I have finally made it back to update this page...
Today was a massive milestone for our family....
Shane started kindy...
Hanna is now in Year 3...
Brandon is in Year 7...
I will get a photo up asap also
A lovely lady called Mary helped me get back into this site...
I will update again tomorrow
Friday, February 2, 2007
Hello Everyone...
A proper update finally...
On the 22nd December 2006 a new family member joined our family...
I delivered Shane, a 27 weeker (yes, 13 weeks early!!) who weighed in at a huge 1245grams!!!
One day old...
Daddy's Hand in with Shane!!
Cuddle with Mum!!
Today Shane is 6 weeks old(Corrected age 33 weeks gestation!!)
He is a fighter just like Kurtis...
We spent 4 weeks in KEMH(King Edward Memorial Hospital), then Shane was transferred to PMH(Princess Margaret Hospital), the hospital where Kurtis was treated.
We have "gone home" in a sense, to PMH and we are back in the hospital routine!!!
I am feeling much better now, i am still unable to drive etc, so Andrew is the Taxi Driver!!!!
Brandon & Hanna adore Shane, he is definately their "little" brother...
Our life is now revolving around getting Shane home, bring on the end of March(23rd is Due date!!!)
For Brandon and Hanna they are both in the school system this year!!!
Brandon has started Year 3 & Hanna has started Kindy!!!
Aren't they georgeous!!!!!!
February...
This Monday the 5th of Feb, Kurtis died 6 years ago...
I can't believe it has really been that long...
I know that Kurtis has been watching over us, the past few months...
He is definately looking out for us...
Kurtis...
We will never forget him...
He is in all our thoughts...
There are many times ahead where Kurtis will be in our thoughts, just that little bit more than usual...
So keep showing us those beautiful Rainbows and making us smile!!!
We love you mate...
Love Always
The Seaman Family
Alana, Andrew, Brandon, Hanna, Shane and our Precious Angel Kurtis ^i^
Look to the sky.........
You may see a Rainbow passing by.....
"You are so far away in distance but you are with us every day in our hearts"
"We think about how much we miss him and start to feel sorry for ourselves.....
But then we think about all the people who never got the chance to meet him and we start to feel sorry for them."
**********
KURTIS......
WE LOVE YOU.....
Please remember Kurtis...
He is with us everyday...
We see you in the Stars....
And in the beautiful Rainbows....
The time has passed....
The seasons have changed...
Our love for you....
Has remained the same...
To have one more hug....
And one more kiss...
To have you here....
Is what we miss...
Kurtis I just know you will be keeping an eye on us all....
Sending you lots of Hugs & Kisses...and Muscles!!
Love You Bud....
Miss You Bud....
Your Mummy.......
**********
My Son
So many days....
Have passed me by....
I want you back....
I sit down and cry....
How do I cope....
I really don't know.....
I want to fall in a heap...
But I keep on the go.....
Thinking of memories...
I end up with a tear....
I know you can see me.....
I can feel you are near....
You send me signs....
To brighten my day.....
To let me know.....
That you are ok....
My broken heart aches....
It is oh so sore....
I think of you....
And the tears just pour....
Well I must go.....
To fight another day....
Please don't forget....
You're in my heart to stay....
In Memory of Kurtis Seaman
February 27, 1996 - February 5, 2001
~written by Alana Seaman
Monday, August 28, 2006 (11:30 am West Aussie Time)
Well...
A few people have emailed/mentioned to me that i need to do an update!!!
So here goes!!!!
We have all been busy with all the different things that are happening in our lives at the moment...
Brandon...
He has been busy at school and really doing well this year...
He is half way through Term 3 of Year 2...
Scary i know!!!
He is just amazing us with everything he does...
He gets in a helps where he can and is just growing into such a wonderful young man!!!
He will probably hate me for writing that!!!
As you can see by the above ticker he will be 8 this year!!!
AMAZING!!!
He has a "wishlist" already!!!
Guess what his number one item is....???
???
???
A Motorbike!!!!
Andrew is keen for him to have one...
I am maybe happy for a Petrol 4 Wheeler...???
hmmmm....Still deciding on this one!!!
Hanna...
Well Miss Hanna is just growing up also!!!
As you can see from the above ticker she is nearly 4!!!
She is actually getting a Dora the Explorer Ride-On Car for her Birthday...
She picked it out!!!
She LOVES Dora & Boots!!!
She is also very proud of herself at the moment!!
She has a Kindy place for next year at Brandon's School...(Which she is now calling HER school... she doesn't even go there yet!!!)
We have an orientation day in late November to meet the teachers etc... For next year...
So Hanna is proud as punch that she has a "place" at Kindy!!!
Andrew...
He is busy at work...As usual!!!
He is also celebrating a great Milestone this weekend!!!!
hehehehehehehe(He is gonna get me for this!!!)
HAPPY 30th BIRTHDAY!!!!!
Me...
Busy keeping everyone organised!!!
hehehehehe
And finally updating this page!!!!
hehehehehehehe
Kurtis...
We will never forget him...
He is in all our thoughts...
Next year will be hard...
February is always hard...
But with Both Brandon and now Hanna entering the "school yard" it is going to be tough...
Christmas is also coming in quick...
There are many times ahead where Kurtis will be in our thoughts, just that little bit more than usual...
So keep showing us those beautiful Rainbows and making us smile!!!
We love you mate...
Love Always
The Seaman Family
Alana, Andrew, Brandon, Hanna and our Precious Angel Kurtis ^i^
Look to the sky.........
You may see a Rainbow passing by.....
"You are so far away in distance but you are with us every day in our hearts"
"We think about how much we miss him and start to feel sorry for ourselves.....
But then we think about all the people who never got the chance to meet him and we start to feel sorry for them."
**********
KURTIS......
WE LOVE YOU.....
Please remember Kurtis...
He is with us everyday...
We see you in the Stars....
And in the beautiful Rainbows....
The time has passed....
The seasons have changed...
Our love for you....
Has remained the same...
To have one more hug....
And one more kiss...
To have you here....
Is what we miss...
Kurtis I just know you will be keeping an eye on us all....
Sending you lots of Hugs & Kisses...and Muscles!!
Love You Bud....
Miss You Bud....
Your Mummy.......
**********
My Son
So many days....
Have passed me by....
I want you back....
I sit down and cry....
How do I cope....
I really don't know.....
I want to fall in a heap...
But I keep on the go.....
Thinking of memories...
I end up with a tear....
I know you can see me.....
I can feel you are near....
You send me signs....
To brighten my day.....
To let me know.....
That you are ok....
My broken heart aches....
It is oh so sore....
I think of you....
And the tears just pour....
Well I must go.....
To fight another day....
Please don't forget....
You're in my heart to stay....
In Memory of Kurtis Seaman
February 27, 1996 - February 5, 2001
~written by Alana Seaman
Saturday, February 25th, 2006 (9pm West Aussie Time)
Good Evening Everyone....
Well 10 years ago today i had gone into labour...(It was late Sunday night 10 years ago!!!)
Expecting my first child was very exciting and frightening all in one!!!
My labour was very very long!!!
With lots of complications!!!
But on the evening of Tuesday 27th 1996, We finally became a family of 3!!!
Kurtis Edward Seaman was born, he made his parents very proud.
This year he turns 10....
Double Digits....
Amazing....
This photo is from his last birthday here with us....
This is when he turned 4....
So very happy!!!!
I miss him so much.
And so much has happened in the past 10 Years....
This monday we will be celebrating Kurtis' Birthday....
I will be making another Rainbow Cake....
Please remember Kurtis....
Wish him a Happy Birthday....
Sign his guestbook....
I know there will be a big party on Monday night....
Kurtis has many Angel Friends with him now....
We will be celebrating here also....
His Birthday....
His Life....
His Memory....
I hope he can see us all....
And see how much we all miss him....
We talk about Kurtis with Brandon and Hanna....
He is missed by them very much....
**********
Please think of Kurtis this month....
If you can leave a message in his guestbook that would be great....
If you knew Kurtis when he was here with us all, Please leave a Memory you have of him.
If you have only known Kurtis since he became an Angel, Please leave a message too.
Love Always
The Seaman Family
Alana, Andrew, Brandon, Hanna and our Precious Angel Kurtis ^i^
Look to the sky.........
You may see a Rainbow passing by.....
"You are so far away in distance but you are with us every day in our hearts"
"We think about how much we miss him and start to feel sorry for ourselves.....
But then we think about all the people who never got the chance to meet him and we start to feel sorry for them."
**********
KURTIS......
WE LOVE YOU.....
Please remember Kurtis...
He is with us everyday...
We see you in the Stars....
And in the beautiful Rainbows....
The time has passed....
The seasons have changed...
Our love for you....
Has remained the same...
To have one more hug....
And one more kiss...
To have you here....
Is what we miss...
Kurtis I just know you will be keeping an eye on us all....
Sending you lots of Hugs & Kisses...and Muscles!!
Love You Bud....
Miss You Bud....
Your Mummy.......
**********
My Son
So many days....
Have passed me by....
I want you back....
I sit down and cry....
How do I cope....
I really don't know.....
I want to fall in a heap...
But I keep on the go.....
Thinking of memories...
I end up with a tear....
I know you can see me.....
I can feel you are near....
You send me signs....
To brighten my day.....
To let me know.....
That you are ok....
My broken heart aches....
It is oh so sore....
I think of you....
And the tears just pour....
Well I must go.....
To fight another day....
Please don't forget....
You're in my heart to stay....
In Memory of Kurtis Seaman
February 27, 1996 - February 5, 2001
~written by Alana Seaman
Happy Birthday to You....
Happy Birthday to You....
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Happy Birthday to You....
Happy Birthday to You....
Happy Birthday to You....
Happy Birthday to You....
Wednesday, February 1st, 2006 (10am West Aussie Time)
Good Morning Everyone....
Well the first day of Feb is here...
Brandon started Year 2 this morning....
He was so excited to be back and catching up with all of his friends....
He also has a new teacher this year and there are 2 new students in his class....
He also starts swimming lessons this morning.... So it is a pretty exciting start to Year 2!!!
He is sad that one of his friends had to move to a different school this year.... But we have promised to stay in contact out of school, so Brandon is happy with that.
I am so proud of Brandon.
He has grown into a wonderful young man.
Hanna was a bit sad to say the least this morning!!!
She didn't want to leave class....
She is eligible to start Kindy next year....
So she will have to hang out with me for another year!!!
**********
We all survived Christmas and New Years....
It was hard at times but we made it through....
**********
February is a tough month....
In a few days on Sunday it will be the 5th....
Can it really be that 5 years has been and gone since Kurtis became an Angel???
I am missing him so very much....
And then on the 27th of Feb.... Kurtis would have been celebrating "double digits".... The big 10 this year....
Have I really been a Mum for that long???
I hope he can see us all....
And see how much we all miss him....
We talk about Kurtis with Brandon and Hanna....
He is missed by them very much....
**********
Well I have a few things I need to sort out....
It's back to a "routine" now!!!
Lot's of driving in the car and homework again!!!
Please think of Kurtis this month....
If you can leave a message in his guestbook that would be great....
If you knew Kurtis when he was here with us all, Please leave a Memory you have of him.
If you have only known Kurtis since he became an Angel, Please leave a message too.
Love Always
The Seaman Family
Alana, Andrew, Brandon, Hanna and our Precious Angel Kurtis ^i^
Look to the sky.........
You may see a Rainbow passing by.....
"You are so far away in distance but you are with us every day in our hearts"
"We think about how much we miss him and start to feel sorry for ourselves.....
But then we think about all the people who never got the chance to meet him and we start to feel sorry for them."
**********
KURTIS......
WE LOVE YOU.....
Please remember Kurtis...
He is with us everyday...
We see you in the Stars....
And in the beautiful Rainbows....
The time has passed....
The seasons have changed...
Our love for you....
Has remained the same...
To have one more hug....
And one more kiss...
To have you here....
Is what we miss...
Kurtis I just know you will be keeping an eye on us all....
Sending you lots of Hugs & Kisses...and Muscles!!
Love You Bud....
Miss You Bud....
Your Mummy.......
**********
My Son
So many days....
Have passed me by....
I want you back....
I sit down and cry....
How do I cope....
I really don't know.....
I want to fall in a heap...
But I keep on the go.....
Thinking of memories...
I end up with a tear....
I know you can see me.....
I can feel you are near....
You send me signs....
To brighten my day.....
To let me know.....
That you are ok....
My broken heart aches....
It is oh so sore....
I think of you....
And the tears just pour....
Well I must go.....
To fight another day....
Please don't forget....
You're in my heart to stay....
In Memory of Kurtis Seaman
February 27, 1996 - February 5, 2001
~written by Alana Seaman
Friday, December 23, 2005 (8pm Western Australia Time)
Hello Everyone...
Is it nearly that time of year again...
2 Sleeps to Father Christmas!!!
Brandon and Hanna are so excited!!
They have recieved a few parcels in the post already with Christmas Presents so they are pretty excited to see presents under the tree already!!!
They helped me get a batch of Christmas Cookies half made this afternoon!!
(They are chilling at the moment!!)
Tomorrow we will roll the mixture out and then cut shapes with our cookie cutters!!!
We have to have some special ones for Father Christmas to eat!!!
(YUMMY!!)
I have also just made my first Fruit Cake.
I have never attempted a Fruit Cake before so i hope it tastes ok!!!
It smells absolutely YUMMY SCRUMMY YUMMY!!!!
So we are all still all busy here!!!
Andrew has down some yard clean up!!!
The kids rooms have been re-arranged!!!
And my area here near the computer is still a mess!!
*SIGH*
Brandon's birthday was wonderful!!!
He had a great day and enjoyed playing with all his friends from his new school(Yr 1) and old(pre-primary)!!!
Hanna had a lovely day too enjoying the company of some friends siblings!!
After the party we went a saw Father Christmas...
Brandon put in his order for some more Lego!!!
And Hanna requested a new Bike!!!
I hope Father Christmas can make their dreams come true!!!
Andrew has been busy and has the Christmas and New Year off. He has been busy finishing off a few jobs and starting new ones!!
Our outdoor area looks great now with 2 shade sails to shelter us and the fish pond!!!
The Memorial Service was wonderful again. The ballons took off really fast this year. The weather was a bit cooler this year!!!
(We didn't get burnt at least!!)
I am thinking about our next newsletter now which is due out the end of January. I want to try and get it all done so i can relax throughout February. Well try to relax anyway!!!
If you want to go check out our groups website here is the address...
Bereaved Parent Group
Kurtis is constantly in my thoughts now.
Christmas is so close and i can remember our last Christmas with Kurtis. It seems like yesterday.
It just seems so unfair that i will never get to see him open another present.
Next year he would have made double digits... The big 10...
It's amazing what things will trigger the feelings of all the "why's....if only's....what if's...."
Kurtis will never be forgotten, He is my Angel, My Son.
His Anniversary is closing in now too...
5 Years...
Amazing...He has been an angel for nearly 5 Years...
Thanks again to everyone who takes the time to sign our guestbook... For all the lovely messages in the guestbook...
They mean deep down that Kurtis will never be forgotten...
Love Always
The Seaman Family
Alana, Andrew, Brandon, Hanna and our Precious Angel Kurtis ^i^
Look to the sky.........
You may see a Rainbow passing by.....
"You are so far away in distance but you are with us every day in our hearts"
"We think about how much we miss him and start to feel sorry for ourselves.....
But then we think about all the people who never got the chance to meet him and we start to feel sorry for them."
****************************************
KURTIS......
WE LOVE YOU.....
Please remember Kurtis...
He is with us everyday...
We see you in the Stars....
And in the beautiful Rainbows....
The time has passed....
The seasons have changed...
Our love for you....
Has remained the same...
To have one more hug....
And one more kiss...
To have you here....
Is what we miss...
Kurtis i just know you will be keeping an eye on us all....
Sending you lots of Hugs & Kisses...and Muscles!!
Love You Bud....
Miss You Bud....
Your Mummy.......
Friday, December 23, 2005 (8pm Western Australia Time)
Hello Everyone...
Is it nearly that time of year again...
2 Sleeps to Father Christmas!!!
Brandon and Hanna are so excited!!
They have recieved a few parcels in the post already with Christmas Presents so they are pretty excited to see presents under the tree already!!!
They helped me get a batch of Christmas Cookies half made this afternoon!!
(They are chilling at the moment!!)
Tomorrow we will roll the mixture out and then cut shapes with our cookie cutters!!!
We have to have some special ones for Father Christmas to eat!!!
(YUMMY!!)
I have also just made my first Fruit Cake.
I have never attempted a Fruit Cake before so i hope it tastes ok!!!
It smells absolutely YUMMY SCRUMMY YUMMY!!!!
So we are all still all busy here!!!
Andrew has down some yard clean up!!!
The kids rooms have been re-arranged!!!
And my area here near the computer is still a mess!!
*SIGH*
Brandon's birthday was wonderful!!!
He had a great day and enjoyed playing with all his friends from his new school(Yr 1) and old(pre-primary)!!!
Hanna had a lovely day too enjoying the company of some friends siblings!!
After the party we went a saw Father Christmas...
Brandon put in his order for some more Lego!!!
And Hanna requested a new Bike!!!
I hope Father Christmas can make their dreams come true!!!
Andrew has been busy and has the Christmas and New Year off. He has been busy finishing off a few jobs and starting new ones!!
Our outdoor area looks great now with 2 shade sails to shelter us and the fish pond!!!
The Memorial Service was wonderful again. The ballons took off really fast this year. The weather was a bit cooler this year!!!
(We didn't get burnt at least!!)
I am thinking about our next newsletter now which is due out the end of January. I want to try and get it all done so i can relax throughout February. Well try to relax anyway!!!
If you want to go check out our groups website here is the address...
Bereaved Parent Group
Kurtis is constantly in my thoughts now.
Christmas is so close and i can remember our last Christmas with Kurtis. It seems like yesterday.
It just seems so unfair that i will never get to see him open another present.
Next year he would have made double digits... The big 10...
It's amazing what things will trigger the feelings of all the "why's....if only's....what if's...."
Kurtis will never be forgotten, He is my Angel, My Son.
His Anniversary is closing in now too...
5 Years...
Amazing...He has been an angel for nearly 5 Years...
Thanks again to everyone who takes the time to sign our guestbook... For all the lovely messages in the guestbook...
They mean deep down that Kurtis will never be forgotten...
Love Always
The Seaman Family
Alana, Andrew, Brandon, Hanna and our Precious Angel Kurtis ^i^
Look to the sky.........
You may see a Rainbow passing by.....
"You are so far away in distance but you are with us every day in our hearts"
"We think about how much we miss him and start to feel sorry for ourselves.....
But then we think about all the people who never got the chance to meet him and we start to feel sorry for them."
****************************************
KURTIS......
WE LOVE YOU.....
Please remember Kurtis...
He is with us everyday...
We see you in the Stars....
And in the beautiful Rainbows....
The time has passed....
The seasons have changed...
Our love for you....
Has remained the same...
To have one more hug....
And one more kiss...
To have you here....
Is what we miss...
Kurtis i just know you will be keeping an eye on us all....
Sending you lots of Hugs & Kisses...and Muscles!!
Love You Bud....
Miss You Bud....
Your Mummy.......
Wednesday, November 9th 2005
Hello Everyone...
Is it really nearly that time of year again???
In the shops there is Christmas EVERYWHERE....
Things are still busy here.
Our family have a number of things going on and we are looking at getting ready for this Christmas Season...
Andrew is under strict orders from Brandon that he HAS to put up the Christmas Lights this year!!!
Last year the house/yard looked wonderful...
Hanna will enjoy them more this year being that bit older!!!
Andrew has also finished siliage and is attempting to finish of the hay rolls this week...
Brandon is halfway through finishing Term 4 of Year 1.
Year 2 next year!!! WOW!!!
There has been lots more School Activities this term and we have been kept very busy. His graduation ceremony is on the 1st December!!!
Brandon is counting down the days to his 7th birthday!!!
He is especially excited because this year we are letting him have his first "official" Birthday Party at.....
You guessed it... McDonalds!!!
Hanna has been keeping us on our toes too!!
She is just growing up so fast and it is hard to believe that she has turned 3...Where has the time gone???
She is reminding us everyday that her birthday has gone... She is so cute when she tells us and everyone she meets... how embarassing!!!!
So she is currently counting down to her birthday next year now!!!!
My life is just continuing along...
We have had a few dramas with organising our Memorial Service this year but things are finally falling into place.... I hope... Touch-wood....
The newsletter i put together for the group has been put on hold due to the dilemmas and i am hoping that will be published soon...
If you want to go check out our groups website here is the address...
Bereaved Parent Group
I am also busy keeping the kids together and helping with homework etc!!
Kurtis is constantly in my thoughts now.
With Hanna's recent Birthday and Brandon's is coming up soon, it just seems so unfair that i will never get to see Kurtis open another present. Next year he would have made double digits... The big 10...
And with Christmas sneaking up on us also.
It's amazing what things will trigger the feelings of all the "why's....if only's....what if's...."
I could go on and on... But i won't...
I must say we were driving in the car the other day and we saw a few Glorious RAINBOWS...
Thanks Bud... We knew they were from you!!!
Thanks again to everyone who takes the time to sign our guestbook... For all the lovely messages in the guestbook...
They mean deep down that Kurtis will never be forgotten...
Love Always
The Seaman Family
Alana, Andrew, Brandon, Hanna and our Precious Angel Kurtis ^i^
Look to the sky.........
You may see a Rainbow passing by.....
"You are so far away in distance but you are with us every day in our hearts"
"We think about how much we miss him and start to feel sorry for ourselves.....
But then we think about all the people who never got the chance to meet him and we start to feel sorry for them."
****************************************
KURTIS......
WE LOVE YOU.....
Please remember Kurtis...
He is with us everyday...
We see you in the Stars....
And in the beautiful Rainbows....
The time has passed....
The seasons have changed...
Our love for you....
Has remained the same...
To have one more hug....
And one more kiss...
To have you here....
Is what we miss...
Kurtis i just know you will be keeping an eye on us all....
Sending you lots of Hugs & Kisses...and Muscles!!
Love You Bud....
Miss You Bud....
Your Mummy.......
Monday, September 19, 2005
Well...
I have returned to update yet again...
Things have been busy here.
Brandon is nearly finished Term 3 of Year 1.
There has been lots of School Activities this term and we have been kept very busy.
He is also counting down the days to his birthday!!!
Hanna has been keeping us on our toes too!!
She is just growing up so fast and is happy to inform you that it is nearly her birthday also!!!
Andrew is busy with work and has a few projects happening at home.
I am busy keeping the kids together and helping with homework etc!!
I am also still helping with our local Bereaved Parent Group.
Kurtis is in my thoughts daily.
especially since the kids birthdays are coming it is hard thinking that i will never get to see Kurtis open another present.
And with Christmas sneaking up on us also.
It's amazing what things will trigger the feelings of all the "why's....if only's....what if's...."
Thanks again for all the lovely messages in the guestbook...
They mean deep down that Kurtis will never be forgotten...
Love Always
The Seaman Family
Alana, Andrew, Brandon, Hanna and our Precious Angel Kurtis ^i^
Look to the sky.........
You may see a Rainbow passing by.....
"You are so far away in distance but you are with us every day in our hearts"
"We think about how much we miss him and start to feel sorry for ourselves.....
But then we think about all the people who never got the chance to meet him and we start to feel sorry for them."
****************************************
KURTIS......
WE LOVE YOU.....
Please remember Kurtis...
He is with us everyday...
We see you in the Stars....
And in the beautiful Rainbows....
The time has passed....
The seasons have changed...
Our love for you....
Has remained the same...
To have one more hug....
And one more kiss...
To have you here....
Is what we miss...
Kurtis i just know you will be keeping an eye on us all....
Sending you lots of Hugs & Kisses...and Muscles!!
Love You Bud....
Miss You Bud....
Your Mummy.......
Friday, June 10, 2005
Just been doing the rounds and visiting some lovely pages out there on the net...
And thought to myself i must come and update here...
Well what can i say...
The time has surely flown by this year...
At the moment we are all a little ill...
Flu season here...
Up all night coughing and going in and putting blankets back on the kids....who are also coughing!!
But on a brighter note...
Brandon is nearly half way through year 1...
He will be 7 in December... WOW!!!
Hanna is growing up so fast and learning so many things now...
She will be 3 in September... WOW!!!
Andrew is busy with work and busy with projects around the house too!!!
And i am just doing the same old stuff!!
Our Angel Kurtis has been presenting us with some lovely RAINBOWS lately...
How i miss him being here...
There is a hole that can't be filled...
I have my good days...
I have my bad...
Well we hope you are feeling better than us!!!
Take care...
Thanks for signing the guestbook...
Alana, Andrew, Brandon, Hanna & Our Angel Kurtis ^i^
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KURTIS......
WE LOVE YOU.....
Please remember Kurtis...
He is with us everyday...
We see you in the Stars....
And in the beautiful Rainbows....
The time has passed....
The seasons have changed...
Our love for you....
Has remained the same...
To have one more hug....
And one more kiss...
To have you here....
Is what we miss...
Kurtis i just know you will be keeping an eye on us all....
Sending you lots of Hugs & Kisses...and Muscles!!
Love You Bud....
Miss You Bud....
Your Mummy.......
Thursday, January 20, 2005 West Aussie Time!!
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***UPDATE ADDED: Thursday Feb 17th 2005***
We would like to say a warm THANK YOU to all who sent us messages etc... on Kurtis' Angel day. It was a another hard day to "wade" through. But we made it. We are now on the lead up to his Birthday. This year on the 27th Feb he would have been celebrating his 9th Birthday.
All the "what if's" now come into play...
I trust in my heart that he is around us and that we will meet up once again.
But it is just so hard...
Wishing eveyone the best of luck with whatever it is you are doing currently.
Think of our Boy.
Think of our Kurtis.
All our love
Alana & Family
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
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Well we survived Xmas & New Years...
Phew!....
Now we are in January....January 2005....
.......WOW.......
It's now a countdown to a few things in our lives...
Brandon will be starting Year 1 in a few weeks....for the very first time...I have a child entering Year 1....
Kurtis' Angel Anniversary is coming up also....
He died the morning he could have started Year 1....
February...The end of February is Kurtis' Birthday....
This year he would have been turning 9....Yes...NINE!!
It's unbelievable....
Have the years just flown on by...Or is this just a big dream that i am going to wake up from???
Sadly it is no dream...
I miss my Boy so much...
It really does hurt....
Oh...Kurtis...
How i wish you were still here with us....
To see you play with Brandon & Hanna....
It happens only in my dreams....
I know you are here with us....
Looking over our shoulders...
KURTIS......
WE LOVE YOU.....
Please remember Kurtis...
He is with us everyday...
We see you in the Stars....
And in the beautiful Rainbows....
The time has passed....
The seasons have changed...
Our love for you....
Has remained the same...
To have one more hug....
And one more kiss...
To have you here....
Is what we miss...
Kurtis i just know you will be keeping an eye on us all....
Sending you lots of Hugs & Kisses...and Muscles!!
All my love my Dear Child...
My first born Child...
Love You Bud....
Miss You Bud....
Your Mummy.......
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
Merry Christmas to All....
Merry Christmas my Son....
Wishing on all the stars in the sky that you will have a peaceful xmas season this year...
Missing you heaps...
So sad that this is our 4th Xmas without you....
Dad has decorated the house/yard in beautiful lights this year.....
I am sure you can see it all shining so bright....
Brandon and Hanna are so excited about Xmas this year...
The presents are starting to arrive for them and are under the tree!!!
It's a pity really....there should be groups of three...
I wish you could be here with us...
I will light your special candle as i always do...
And shed some tears...(as i am now)
So many things rushing through my mind...
All the if's and why's....
I love you so very very much bud...
All my love
MUM
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX
Sunday, August 8, 2004 9:30am (WEST AUSSIE TIME)
We have been busy yet again.....
We moved closer to my Hubbys work so we have been organising all that comes with a move.....
"disconnections/reconnections"
"school enrolments"
"learning new shops whereabouts"
"unpacking boxes"
etc...etc....
We have seen some magnificent Rainbows also....
It was a feeling of everything is ok with this move...
Don't worry...
I know where you are...
This is the 4th move since Kurtis died...
On other news....
Brandon is growing up really fast...
He is becoming a real character in his own right!!!
Loves playing/annoying his sister Hanna!!!
And well Hanna is becoming a real little miss!!!
She will be 2 in September and already is displaying the "terrible two" traits!!! hehehehe
And she gets into trouble too with stirring Brandon up!!!
I miss Kurtis heaps.....
I love you bud...(as you know!)
****HUGS****KISSES****MUSCLES****
Love Mum and the Family
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Sunday, May 9, 2004
Happy Mothers Day to all Mothers....
It's a hard day for some....others just breeze through it...
Having my other 2 kids around really helps...
Thankyou for being there....Brandon and Hanna...
I miss Kurtis Terribly...
I wish that he could be here...
Miss you heaps buddy...
Love Forever your Mum...
xoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Thursday, February 26, 2004 11:45am West Aussie Time
Kurtis Edward Seaman
27th Feb 1996 ~ 5th Feb 2001
Happy Birthday to Kurtis...
Happy Birthday to Kurtis...
Happy Birthday dear Kurtis...
Happy Birthday to you...
Thinking of you with much love and happiness...
We were so lucky to have you even if it was just a short time...
You touched so many people, many i know who still remember you with happy loving thoughts...
And those you never got to meet in person feel a connection with you through our memories of you...
We cherish all the time we did have with you...
Happy 8th Birthday Kurtis...
We love you Kurtis....
****HUGS****KISSES****MUSCLES****
Love Always your family...
Mum, Dad, Brandon & Hanna
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
"You are so far away in distance but you are
with us every day in our hearts"
Wednesday, January 21, 2004
****NEW PHOTO'S ADDED****
****NEW PHOTO'S ADDED****
****NEW PHOTO'S ADDED****
****NEW PHOTO'S ADDED****
We are now in the lead up stage to when Kurtis became an Angel. This time 3 years ago he was still alive. Has it really been 3 years??
Yes it has and so many things have happened to us as a family.
I am going to include a letter i submitted to our local Bereaved Parent Group from our Hospital.
THE NEW YEAR AND WHAT IT CONFRONTS US WITH....
The year 2004....
What a year this will be....
This year now makes us "celebrating" Kurtis' 3rd Angel Anniversary....
It has us "celebrating" his 8th Birthday...mind you he never "celebrated" his 5th, 6th or 7th and now we are in the year where he would have been 8....
This year also brings about great change....
Our second born child...our son Brandon will be venturing into the "school yard" for the very first time... He will be going off to Pre-Primary and this is so very scary for me....
Kurtis actually died the morning of the day he could have entered into year one...
We never even had the chance to think about sending him off to the "school yard".
And this year we will be letting Brandon go....
He has issues with his speech and is having therapy for that and sending him will be a great benefit to him....
This is what I have to keep telling myself anyway!!
I know he will be fine....
Well I am telling myself this.....
To intrust someone else with our children is a very big step....
I do not believe in daycare, childcare or whatever they call it...
We had our kids so we take care of them...
Many have told me to "dump" them in daycare....have time to yourself...
But to me my kids are my life....They have made me a mum that I am proud to be.
On the first day of school I can see myself crying and Brandon probably won't shed a tear....
But I won't be like most mums there who are sending their child of to school....
I will be crying....sure for the simple fact that Brandon is now old enough to attend school...
But I will crying also for the fact that I never got to send my first born off to school...
I have been robbed again by the blasted cancer that took his life 3 years ago.
So many things have been "robbed" from us.....
Gradually the "special" occasions will pop up and be at us...
But I am lucky that I have 2 great kids here with me still....
Brandon and Hanna...
And I have my hubby Andrew who is just the greatest fella...
But we all have an Angel looking over our shoulders....
Kurtis Edward Seaman
27th Feb 1996 ~ 5th Feb 2001
Written by Alana Seaman
Kurtis i hope that you will never be forgotten.....
You have touched many people and i hope they remember you...
We remember you every day....
We see your pictures or we see a rainbow and we stop and pause and remember you....
This year seems to be a little harder if anything for some reason...
Maybe it just that so many things are changing around us and reality is finally sinking in....
I will finish here now....
We love you Kurtis....
****HUGS****KISSES****MUSCLES****
Remember to stop by Kurtis's Quilt....
http://smilequiltsmemorials.com/kurtiss.html
You can add a square for him if you would like too....
And to stop by at Sweet Memories...
http://www.sweetmemoriessite.com/OLM/contest/crazy_family_bigpond_com/
http://www.sweetmemoriessite.com/OLM/03/crazy_family-bigpond-com.html
Thanks again for all the lovely messages in the guestbook...
They mean deep down that Kurtis will never be forgotten...
Love Always
The Seaman Family
Alana, Andrew, Brandon, Hanna and our Precious Angel Kurtis ^i^
Look to the sky.........
You may see a Rainbow passing by.....
"You are so far away in distance but you are with us every day in our hearts"
"We think about how much we miss him and start to feel sorry for ourselves.....
But then we think about all the people who never got the chance to meet him and we start to feel sorry for them."
Wednesday, December 10, 2003
Happy Birthday Brandon!!!
Happy Birthday Brandon!!!
Happy Birthday Brandon!!!
Happy Birthday Brandon!!!
Happy Birthday Brandon!!!
Brandon has turned 5.....
We had a great day....
I made a cake and put a train on it!!!!!
I did have a cry though.....
Kurtis never got to blow out his 5 candles.....
Now is the lead up to Xmas and the New Year....
2004....seems so far away from 2001....
Remember to stop by Kurtis's Quilt....
http://smilequiltsmemorials.com/kurtiss.html
You can add a square for him if you would like too....
Thanks again for all the lovely messages...
They mean deep down that Kurtis will never be forgotten...
Merry Xmas to you all
Love Always
The Seaman Family
Alana, Andrew, Brandon, Hanna and our Precious Angel Kurtis ^i^
Look to the sky.........
You may see a Rainbow passing by.....
"You are so far away in distance but you are with us every day in our hearts"
Tuesday, November 18, 2003
Well....
Where do i start...
I have been dreading this day for nearly 3 years now...
Today...Brandon has reached his brother Kurtis' age...
In 22 days Brandon will be 5...
An age Kurtis never made here with us...
And i guess Xmas is coming too....which just makes everything so damn hard.....
Everything is amplified or something...
You try to be "happy" on the outside but deep down inside you are just aching...
All the "if only's"...."what if's"...surface to kick you in your butt.....
Then the longing for one last Hug...Kiss...Mum I Love You..
The Family photo is never the same....
It is just so damn hard and only the people who have gone through what we have trully understand...
Everyone is different...
Well its brekky time here.....
Thanks for all the lovely entries in the guestbook...they help.....alot...
Please remember our Angel Kurtis...
Tuesday, August 19, 2003 11:25 am West Aussie Time!!
Hello Everyone.....
WOW!!!
We have been busy!!!!
We have moved from the farm in the deep south!!!
To nicer weather!!!
We are now closer to Perth where Kurtis had the majority of his treatment.
Andrew got a new job better hours!!!
so we moved!!!
Brandon is doing well.....I can't believe he will be 5 this december...
How the time has flown....
And our little girl Hanna....well she isn't that little anymore!!!
She will be 1 at the end of september...Now that has just flown by too!!!
I am keeping busy....
But i am sick of unpacking boxes!!!!!!!!
****NEWS****
Kurtis now has a Quilt @ http://smilequiltsmemorials.com/kurtiss.html
Cheryl is a lovely lady who has created something very special.....
Have a look at the other Quilts she has lovingly made....
Well thats it from us for now!!
Hope you are having a good day/night!!
Love from us all
The Seaman Family ^i^
Saturday, May 10, 2003
Happy Mothers Day to all Mothers out there who no longer have a child to hold......
My dear Kurtis i am missing you so.....
I think of you often and my mind just wanders to when you were still here with us.....
I will be looking for a Rainbow tommorrow.....
Love you sweety
Mum xoxoxoxox
Wednesday, April 2, 2003 5:20 PM (WEST AUSSIE TIME)
Hello to everyone......
Sorry for not updating the journal for so long......
I have really been run off my feet.....
We survived Kurtis 2nd Angel anniversary and His 7th Birthday.
I have been thinking about him very much.....
Tears seem to be in my eyes more also.....
I guess i am just really missing him.....
On other news.....
Brandon is doing fine......He is growing up so fast....He has also been diagnosed with a Speech Disorder.....He needs therapy to right the problem....:-)
Hanna has Teeth!!!....She is rolling around and can slide on her belly!!!...I can't believe she is over 6 months old now!!!...She also has the cutest giggle!!!!
We also entered a drawing in the Heavenly Lights Newsletter for a Sweet Memories Poem Print....
http://sweetmemoriessite.com/index.html
The link to our Specially made Print for Kurtis is below in the links section....It is beautiful...
We would like to thank Randy for donating the prize to Heavenly Lights and to Laura for her weekly newsletter....
Thats all for now....
Sign our Guestbook....Let us know what you think of the print....
All our Love
The Seaman Family
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Friday, January 31, 2003 at 5:20pm West Aussie Time
Well.....
February is here tommorrow.....
I can't believe we are coming up to 2 years....
Has Kurtis really been gone for that long....
I still miss him as much as i ever have....
My heart still hurts as it did the day he died....
We will be spending the 5th together.....
I will no doubt have a cry....
I am lucky to have Andrew and my 2 other children....Brandon and Hanna.
Please remember Kurtis on the 5th.....
And on the 27th he should have been celebrating his 7th Birthday....
I intend to make another Rainbow cake this year....
Love to you all
Alana, Andrew, Brandon, Hanna and our
Special Angel Kurtis ^i^
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
*******UPDATED*******
Monday, 3rd Feb 2003 at 8am West Aussie Time
New photos have been added to the album...
Love Always Alana xoxoxoxox
Monday, December 16, 2002 at 10 AM (WEST AUSSIE TIME)
Greetings everyone......
Our computer problems have been solved!!!!!
Our Motherboard was faulty!!!
The "beeping" has stopped and everything seems to be running ok!!!!
I have been able to scan some pictures of Hanna and Brandon....
Time has flown.....
Hanna is 3 Months old this week.....
Scary....It seems like she has been with us alot longer.....
Brandon is gearing up for Xmas....He has made a special Angel for Kurtis and it is hanging on our tree....
We made it too our local Memorial Service for all the kids who died on our Ward at the kids hospital....
It was great to be apart of that again this year.....
Well my little miss is "calling" me again!!!!!
Enjoy the Photos....
Have a great Xmas season.....
And a great New Year....
Love Always
The Seaman Family
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Tuesday, October 08, 2002 at 5:30 pm (Western Australia)
Greetings Everyone!!!!!
Sorry for the long absence!!!
We have had computer probs etc!!!!
We would like to announce the newest member of our family.........
drum roll!!!!!
Hanna Rose Seaman
Born 25th September 2002
Yes......A little girl.....
We are very happy and pleased with our newest member.....
Kurtis would be very pleased....
No photos as yet......
Trying to convince computer !!!!!
Brandon is very pleased with his little sister!!!
It is nice to have little pink things around the house!!!!
Must get back to it all!!!
Thanks for visiting
With Love
The Seaman Family
xoxoxoxoxxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Sunday, September 22, 2002 at 5:00 PM (WESTERN AUSTRALIA)
Greetings All.......
Not long now till we get our new bundle of joy!!!!
We have had a few nice days of weather and some pretty wild ones too!!!!!
I am finding myself thinking of Kurtis continually....
I guess it's just with the birth of a new baby is just putting my brain into overdrive!!!!
I know he has been taking care of us all....And that he will be watching over me when i have the c-section.....
Thanks to everyone who has visited us here and left messages in the guestbook!!!
We love you Kurtis....
Look to the sky.........
You may see a Rainbow passing by.....
}i{ }i{ }i{ }i{ }i{
"You are so far away in distance but you are with us every day in our hearts"
Love and Peace to you all....
Alana, Andrew, Brandon, "BUB" and our Angel Kurtis ^i^
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Friday, August 30, 2002 at 10:40am West Aussie time
Greetings Everyone......
We are all still plowing along fine!!!
The new Bub is due within the next month or so!!!
We aren't really organised but hey we will get there!!!!
Kurtis has been in my thoughts alot....I guess with the birth of the new bub and everything its just a bit hard.....
Kurtis should be here....
But he isn't and that just really sucks at the moment....
On another note Brandon is just being a typical Boy!!!
He is growing more and more everyday!!!!
Thanks to everyone who has visited and also to those who have left messages.....
They are great inspirations.....
Take care everyone
Love to you all
Alana, Andrew, Brandon and Angel Kurtis ^i^
and of course our mystery Bub......
Look to the sky.........
You may see a Rainbow passing by.....
}i{ }i{ }i{ }i{ }i{
"You are so far away in distance but you are with us every day in our hearts"
Tuesday, July 23, 2002 at 5:59 PM (West Aussie Time)
Greetings All!!!
We are all getting along fine......
Winter has been horrible so far!!!
Lots of rain and storms etc!!!!
But on the bright side there have been some magnificent RAINBOWS!!!!!!
Single ones and Double ones....
Kurtis is definately out there putting on a show!!!
Now to his family!!!
Brandon is growing fast as usual!!!
The baby is getting bigger thus so am i!!!!!
:-)!!!
Things have been fairly quiet here!!!
Thanks to everyone who visits us here!!!
Catch you all soon
Love to you all
Alana, Andrew, Brandon and Angel Kurtis ^i^
and of course our mystery Bub......
Look to the sky.........
You may see a Rainbow passing by.....
}i{ }i{ }i{ }i{ }i{
"You are so far away in distance but you are with us every day in our hearts"
Tuesday, June 04, 2002 at 04:25 PM (West Aussie Time)
Greetings to you all!!!
I haven't been back for an update for awhile now!!!
Thanks for all the messages about our news!!!!
We had our first scan last week!!!
It was great to see this little baby for the first time!!!!
They have put my dates at the first week of October!!!!
But i will probably deliver late September....Earlier C-Section!!!
I hate them but it is the only way i can have kids!!!
This will be my 3rd C-Section!!
I hate them but hey!!
We have been seeing lots of beautiful Rainbows.....
We know Kurtis is looking after us....
Brandon is growing up ever so fast too....
He has had another haircut!!
He looks so much older with shorter hair!!
Well i guess thats about it for now!!
Thanks for the messages
Love to you all
Alana, Andrew, Brandon and Angel Kurtis ^i^
and of course our mystery Bub......
Look to the sky.........
You may see a Rainbow passing by.....
}i{ }i{ }i{ }i{ }i{
"You are so far away in distance but you are with us every day in our hearts"
Friday, April 19, 2002 at 2:10 PM (West Aussie Time)
Greetings to Everyone....
Well things have been interesting to say the least!!!
I have wanted to share some news for a short time now but i just couldn't put the words together...
There is much to worry about and to be scared about!!!
I know i am probably making no sense....
Well here goes!!!
Back in February....Between Kurtis Angel Date on the 5th of Feb and his Birthday on the 27th Feb....
We discovered that our Angel had plans for us....
Due to certain past problems we thought we would be unable to have more children...
Yes....Kurtis has sent us a special gift!!
We are expecting another precious child...
We are roughly due Sept/Oct....No official scans yet!!!
Please keep signing Kurtis' Book....It means the world to us....
Thanks for taking the time to have a look at his pages....
Thanks again
Alana and Family
We Love You Kurtis
Saturday, April 06, 2002 at 1:45 PM (West Aussie Time)
Well.....
Greetings everyone....
Thanks to everyone who has stopped by over the past few weeks.....
Easter went well.....
Lots of Chocky!!!
Brandon still has a few eggs and Rabbits left!!!
Thanks again
Alana and Family
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Thursday, March 14, 2002 at 10:10 AM (West Aussie Time)
Greetings All.......
I have been meaning to update for awhile now.....Life is a bit bumpy and hard to deal with....
Thanks to the people who emailed me on my Birthday....It was a really nice thing for people to remember me on my day....I had a cry but it was just another day....
I seem to be missing Kurtis a lot more lately.....Little things trigger memories....
Why do they have to be memories.....??
Why did he have to be taken away from us....??
Well there is a bit of anger around also!!!!
I am glad people are "meeting" Kurtis and are leaving messages for him and for us....
He was and always will be a great kid...He had so much to give and taught many people about life.....
Thanks again.....
Please stop and check out his photos and sign his book....
Love and Peace to you all
Alana, Andrew, Brandon and Angel Kurtis ^i^
Look to the sky.........
You may see a Rainbow passing by.....
}i{ }i{ }i{ }i{ }i{
"You are so far away in distance but you are with us every day in our hearts"
Wednesday, February 27, 2002 at 8:00 AM (West Aussie Time)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
Well today is your Birthday.....
The Big 6...
And Mum is still making you a cake.....
Rainbow of course with a rainbow on top!!
We will be Happy today because this is meant to be a Happy Day.....
I will probably shed a tear though...
We love you matey...
Hugs...Kisses....Muscles....
ADDED Wednesday, February 27, 2002 at 5:00 PM (West Aussie Time)
We have added new photos from Today....
Happy Birthday Kurtis
We Love You...
See the "Double Rainbows"....
(Rainbow Cake with Rainbow Icing!!)
Saturday February 23, 2002 5:00 PM (West Aussie Time)
Greetings all......
This Wednesday the 27th of February our Precious Kurtis would have been turning 6 Years Old.....
Sadly this is the 2nd Birthday we are going to have to get through without you here to blow out your candles and unwrap your presents...
On this day the 27th Feb '96 we became a Family....I became a Mum and Andrew became a Dad.....
Kurtis made us into a Family....
We won't ever forget that Buddy....
We Love you dearly and miss you heaps...
Take care Buddy....
Hugs.....Kisses....Muscles.....
Friday February 15, 2002 7:20 AM (West Aussie Time)
Greetings everyone....
Thanks for stopping by and visiting our Precious Angel Kurtis....
We survived the First Anniversary....
His birthday is coming up at the end of this month....
This will be the second birthday that he has been unable to celebrate with us...
There is a new "collage" of photos in his Album....
Please take a look.....
Thanks again for all the lovely messages in the guestbook.....
Thanks for signing it when you visit....
It is lovely to be able to read the messages that people leave behind....
Take Care Everyone....
Love and Peace to you all....
Alana, Andrew, Brandon and Angel Kurtis ^i^
Look to the sky.........
You may see a Rainbow passing by.....
}i{ }i{ }i{ }i{ }i{
"You are so far away in distance but you are with us every day in our hearts"
Wednesday February 6, 2002 6:30 AM (West Aussie Time)
Welcome Everyone.....
We Survived.....
Yesterday was the First Anniversary of Kurtis getting his Angel Wings.....
It was a hard day for us....
We Cried and Laughed.....And Cried and Laughed....
Remembering the Good Times and the Bad....
We burned Candles....
We listened to Favourite Music....
We did things that felt right.....
We Survived....
I would now like to share with you the piece we put in our local paper.....
Kurtis Seaman
27th Feb 1996 ~ 5th Feb 2001
A Year has passed...
The seasons have changed...
Our love for you...
Has remained the same...
To have one more hug...
And one more kiss...
To have you here...
Is what we miss...
In our hearts you will always stay...
Loved and remembered every day...
Hugs, Kisses and Muscles...
Mum, Dad and Brandon
I would also like to thank everyone who has visited over the past few days and left beautiful messages in the guestbook....
And to those who emailed us....
THANK YOU....
The messages have helped so very much....
Well i must sign off again!!
Breakfast time here!!!
Brandon is running around!!!
Take care
Thinking of you All...
Love and Peace To You All....
Alana, Andrew, Brandon and Angel Kurtis ^i^
Look to the sky.........
You may see a Rainbow passing by.....
}i{ }i{ }i{ }i{ }i{
"You are so far away in distance but you are with us every day in our hearts"
PS.
I would like you to meet a special girl Kurtis was friends with....Kurtis and Katie were born the same year...same month...Katies Birthday is the 12th Feb...Sadly Katie got her wings on Sept 11th last year...Both these precious Angels were diagnosed with NBL Stage IV...February is such a hard month for us all...Here is her special page...
www.placeintime.homestead.com/APageForKatie.html
Please visit and leave a message...
Our Angels are together....
With Love Alana
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Sunday February 3, 2002 3:20 PM (West Aussie Time)
Well we are getting closer.....
2 more sleeps......
Can we handle the day.....
I really don't know.....
Here is another poem....
I have changed it a little....
(from the original)
****************************************
Firsts.....
We experienced Kurtis' First Birthday......
22 Days after he got his wings.....
It was hard....
We endured my Birthday which is in March.....
That was hard....
I suffered on Mothers Day.....
That was awful.....
Andrew had 2 Days rolled into one....
His Birthday was Fathers Day....
That was a hard day indeed....
Brandon celebrated his 3rd Birthday.....
It was hard....
Then came Christmas.....
What a sad day that was.....
We were happy for Brandon....
But the pain was too hard to bear.....
Then came the "New Year"....
There was nothing to celebrate....
Just another year further away from 2001.....
Now it is remembering this time last year....
Kurtis was still fighting this time last year.....
His First Anniversary is 2 days away.....
What a day that will be....
I hate to think....
****************************************
What will this day bring....
No one knows.....
I am hoping for a rainbow or some other sign....
I will try to come back tommorrow....
I want to place what we have put in our local paper....
I don't want to do it now.....
I am not sure if i could come on Tuesday...
Maybe in the evening....
I want to write how the day went....
Well i must be off.....
Take Care
Please stop by our guestbook....
And visit the photos.....
Love and Peace Always
Alana, Andrew, Brandon and Angel Kurtis ^i^
Look to the sky.........
You may see a Rainbow passing by.....
}i{ }i{ }i{ }i{ }i{
"You are so far away in distance but you are with us every day in our hearts"
Wednesday January 30, 2002 7:00 AM (West Aussie Time)
Greetings All.....
Well....
We have less than a week now till our precious Kurtis got his angel wings....
Has it really been a year....
I just can't believe it has been that long....
My heart keeps telling me it was yesterday every new day.....
We haven't been able to be there next to him for so long....
I really miss him....
We all miss him...
So much has happened over the past year....
YEAR....365 Days....
Why did this happen to us....
Why was he taken away....
We loved him so very much....
We all fought the cancer....
Doesn't that mean anything....
WHY.....
KURTIS......
WE LOVE YOU.....
Please remember Kurtis...
He is with us everyday...
We see you in the Stars....
And in the beautiful Rainbows....
The time has passed....
The seasons have changed...
Our love for you....
Has remained the same...
To have one more hug....
And one more kiss...
To have you here....
Is what we miss...
I wrote this next one a week ago....
********************************
My Son
So many days....
Have passed me by....
I want you back....
I sit down and cry....
How do i cope....
I really don't know.....
I want to fall in a heap...
But i keep on the go.....
Thinking of memories...
I end up with a tear....
I know you can see me.....
I can feel you are near....
You send me signs....
To brighten my day.....
To let me know.....
That you are ok....
My broken heart aches....
It is oh so sore....
I think of you....
And the tears just pour....
Well i must go.....
To fight another day....
Please don't forget....
You're in my heart to stay....
********************************
Please remember us all....
This time of our life is so very difficult....
Remember Kurtis....
Thats the only way his memory will live on....
Thanks for all the messages we have been getting...
They mean alot...
Love and Peace Everyone
Alana, Andrew, Brandon and our Angel Kurtis ^i^
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
PS
Check the Photo Album....
Monday January 21, 2002 10:00 AM (West Aussie Time)
Well......
Time is slowly ticking away....
There is 15 Days till Kurtis' Angel Day....
The 5th Feb.....
These next 2 weeks are going to get harder...
I just can't understand where the past year has gone......
It can't be gone.....
This is just so unfair.....
Kurtis should be here watching the wrestling that is on now.....
He loved WWF....The Royal Rumble is on now.....
He should be here yelling and clapping and trying out moves on his Dad!!
His favourite Wrestler Kane is in the 30 Man Rumble....
Well i hope he has front row seats where ever he is!
We love you mate.....
We will never forget you.....
Monday, January 14, 2002 at 8:40 PM (Western Australian Time)
Well......
G'Day All.......
We are still finding things hard....
This time last year we were getting ready for Kurtis to have some Pallitive Radiotherapy.....
My heart is hurting heaps.....
Please sign his book.....
Look at the photos...
And please REMEMBER HIM......
Love and Peace Always
Alana, Andrew, Brandon and Angel Kurtis ^i^
Look to the sky.........
You may see a Rainbow passing by.....
}i{ }i{ }i{ }i{ }i{
"You are so far away in distance but you are with us every day in our hearts"
Monday, January 07, 2002 at 6:30 AM (western australia)
G'Day to you all.......
Well where do i begin......
I have been back here a few times to write but just couldn't.....
This month is turning out to be worse than i imagined.....
I can clearly remember things that happened this time last year....
How brave Kurtis really was.....
Grown-up....
Courageous....
Stubborn....
He still had his sense of humour....
He got to fly on a plane again....
To go have radiation for pain he had from the growing tumours in his head and leg....
He watched a KISS Concert.....His favourite band....Which was coincidently named "The Last KISS"....
He watched the Wrestling.....Which he loved also, especially the wrestler Kane....
He did so many things....
We want him back....
All we want is to have him back....
This is so hard to deal with.....
Hope you are all well....
Please think of Kurtis....
Sign his book....
Check out the new photos....
Just REMEMBER HIM......
Kurtis ^i^
We Love You.......
Tuesday, January 1, 2002 at 7:30 AM (Western Australian Time)
G'Day All
Well it is here the "New Year"...
The feelings are all here....
Sadness...
Anger...
Joy...
Pity...
Happiness...
Etc...Etc...Etc...
I remember this month from last year....
It was the last "full" month we had with Kurtis...
So many things happened in that month...
And then on the 5th of February the world changed...
We are here...
We have arrived...
This New Year...
Will we Survive????
Take care everyone
Love and Peace Always
Alana, Andrew, Brandon and Angel Kurtis ^i^
Look to the sky.........
You may see a Rainbow passing by.....
}i{ ^i^ }i{ ^i^ }i{ ^i^ }i{ ^i^ }i{
"You are so far away in distance but you are with us every day in our hearts"
Monday, December 31, 2001 at 6:30 AM (Western Australia Time)
G'Day Everyone........
"Happy New Year"
What a statement.....Is it really going to be a "happy new year"??????
I can't see it happening....
First of all I can't say Kurtis became an Angel this year.....Because it was "last" year.....
His first Anniversary of becoming an Angel is coming up in February and his Second Birthday he can't celebrate also in February...
How could it be a "happy" time???
I am starting to think this could be a "bad" year....
Will each year get worse???
I hope not.....
I have heard "time heals".......
Does it???
It isn't working for me??????
I better go again....
Take Care
Love Always
Alana, Andrew, Brandon and Angel Kurtis ^i^
Look to the sky.........
You may see a Rainbow passing by.....
}i{ }i{ }i{ }i{ }i{
"You are so far away in distance but you are with us every day in our hearts"
Friday, December 28, 2001 at 6:25 AM (West Aussie Time)
G'Day to you all.....
I felt like starting with a different greeting!
Hello can get so boring.....
I caught up with a sister of friends from the hospital....
It was so great to chat away with her....
I am really good at babbling away!!
And what was really great.....She let me babble and babble!!!
hehehehehe
Christmas day.
Well what can i say....
This is what i logged on for....
It was probably the worst day of my life...
I know i miss Kurtis and i would give anything to have him back....
But Christmas just amplified the fact he really has gone....
He isn't just in the next room.....
He has left this earth and all the pain.....
But he has left behind his family.....
His Mum, His Dad and His little Brother....
Who all really miss him.....
We are all dealing with it in different ways....Sometimes that is really hard to handle but we are all different.....
What works for one doesn't necessarily mean it will work for another....
Well enough of my babble.....
I just hope others who are on this journey have had a better holiday season so far.....
New Year is next.....
Well take care
Love From us All
Alana, Andrew, Brandon and Angel Kurtis ^i^
Look to the sky.........
You may see a Rainbow passing by.....
}i{ }i{ }i{ }i{ }i{
"You are so far away in distance but you are with us every day in our hearts"
Monday, December 24, 2001 at 6:30 AM (West Aussie Time)
Hello Everyone.....
Well it is nearly here....
One of the "things" i have been dreading since our precious Kurtis became an Angel ^i^
It is Christmas Eve....
I still haven't got everything organised.....
I have to go into town and get the last few things.....
I am dreading this trip....
All the people.......
AAAARRRRRGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH...........
I had a good cry last night....
Kurtis is dearly missed....
This time of year amplifies the loss.....
Then it will be New Years.....
And then before i know it his Angel Date and his Birthday in February.....
This past Year has flown ever so quickly....
Please think of Kurtis....
Have a Merry Christmas
And A nice New Year
Kurtis we love you mate.....
Farewell for now everyone
Have a look at the photos and sign our book...
Love From us All
Alana, Andrew, Brandon and Angel Kurtis ^i^
Look to the sky.........
You may see a Rainbow passing by.....
}i{ }i{ }i{ }i{ }i{
"You are so far away in distance but you are with us every day in our hearts"
Thursday, December 20, 2001 at 6:00 AM (West Aussie Time)
Hi All......
We are still pretty busy over here.....
The countdown is on!!!
Christmas is less than a week away.....
We haven't done our "shopping".....
We have grabbed only one thing so far for Brandon....
The energy just isn't right....
It just doesn't seem to be there at all....
I got crafty with Brandon yesterday.....
Trying to "cheer" the house!!
We made paper chains and paper lanterns.....
And hung then on the walls and windows in the loungeroom.....
Where our beautiful tree is standing....
We also made angels and put them on the tree also....
The tree brings me joy.....
We have many "Angels" on it.....They are all for Kurtis.....
Sometimes it feels like a dream....
But then reality hits and it hurts so much....
It makes you feel sick....
On a happier note.....
I came across a page that really lifted my spirits.....
http://members.tripod.com/heavenlychristmas/memorials_9.htm
I put in a request for Kurtis.....
I went back every day for 3 days and there it was.....
The most beautiful little frame ever....
I saw it and it made me cry....
I have put it in the "photo" section.....
Please take a look......
Go get one for yourself.....
I will also put the little piece i created for the inside of the few Christmas Cards i sent out......
Enjoy.....
Merry Christmas Everyone....
Take it easy.....
Think of Kurtis....
Sign our Book...........
Love and Peace Always...
Alana and Family
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
}i{...^i^...}i{...^i^...}i{...^i^...}i{...^i^...}i{
Saturday, December 15, 2001 at 1:30 PM (West Aussie Time)
Hello Again everyone.....
Thanks for stopping by....
We appreciate it very much, especially at this time of year....
We have Kurtis' Life on a few pages across the net......
They all link back here but i would like to share them with you all......
Take a look at these other sites....
They are so inspirational.....
http://www.heavenlylights.homestead.com/Page4.html
http://www.goldribbons.com/main.html
http://www.tcfatlanta.org/wall.html#S
http://www.heartsinheaven.homestead.com/Page1.html
http://ussgoblin.homestead.com/winnersandwarriors.html
http://www.geocities.com/thegardenchildrensmemorial/Memorial4.html
https://www.daffodilsofhope.org
http://www.beyondindigo.com/tools/mempages/display.php?dID=657
http://www.angelsremembered.homestead.com/AngelBoys2.html
I know that is a lot......
But please try and stop by each one....
Have a look around.....
Sign their Guestbooks.....
Read the stories of others.....
This festive time is such a tough one....
It is our first......our first of many to come......
This next Web Page.......
Please go and take a look....
It is a very nice piece especially around this coming Christmas/New Year period.....
http://www.geocities.com/Heartland/Acres/6627/holiday.htm
Then before i know it......February will be here......
That is going to be the hard one.....
Well i think i have babbled enough!
Go have a look around there is so much out there.....
Look to the sky.....
You may see a Rainbow passing by......
We love you Kurtis.....
...^i^...^i^...^i^...^i^...^i^...
Love to you all.....
Alana and Family
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
PS.
Don't forget to sign our book!!!
It is nice to see who stops by!!!
...}i{...^i^...}i{...
Monday, December 10, 2001 at 05:24 PM (West Aussie Time)
Well.......
Where do i start!!!!
What a lovely experience the Memorial Service was!!
I am so very glad i was able to travel to Perth......
I give a big bravo to the Bereaved Parent Group for organising it.
Well Done.
I have many great memories, special ones that Brandon and I share and will remember forever.....
Thank You.
I recognised many parents and a few parents come up to me to say "Hi".
It was so nice to be there amongst people who were there when we were there.....
A met a few special people who i had only "spoken" with through emails!!
And one special person who told me she decided to attend her first one because of me.......I hope you got everything i got from it!!!
It was just the right time and the right place....
On to a different celebration....
Happy Birthday Brandon!!!
A Big 3 Today!!!!
Today has been hard.....But also a joy!!
To see his eyes light up and enjoy the moment is and was precious.....
I Love You Brandon....
And my dear Kurtis.......
You are so special to me....
I love you too....
We see you in the Stars.....
And in the beautiful Rainbows......
Love and Peace to All......
Alana and Family
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
}i{ ^i^ }i{ ^i^ }i{ ^i^ }i{ ^i^ }i{
Tuesday, December 4, 2001 at 6:00 AM (West Aust)
Hello Everyone.....
I am on my way to the Memorial Service.....
Yay!!!!!
This Sunday at Kings Park.....At the Pioneer Womens Section.....
We will be releasing Balloons.....
Balloons and Baskets will be open in Subiaco from 7am...
The Service is due to start around 8am/8:30am....
Brandon will be with me!!!
It is going to be a big day for us....
We will be driving home that afternoon to get home for Brandons Birthday which is on Monday 10th!!!
He will be 3!!!!!
I hope our journey is safe....
I hate the long drive and i am doing it by myself(4 to 5 Hours)
Andrew is busy with Hay/Silage so he can't leave work to come..... :-(
Anyone can come to the service....
It goes for about an hour maybe a bit longer....
And there will be Tea and Coffee afterwards....
Hope to see people there!!!
Remember our Angels....
Love Alana
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
^i^ }i{ ^i^ }i{ ^i^ }i{ ^i^ }i{ ^i^
Saturday, December 1, 2001 at 8:00 AM (West Aust Time)
Hello......
What an emotional morning.....
We decided to put our Christmas Tree up this morning......
It was a very emotional time.....
Seeing the decorations......
Remembering which ones Kurtis put up and the placing of the "STAR"......
That had always been his job......
Brandon did it this year......
I had a cry afterwards.....
Away from everyone...
Brandon is excited....
His birthday is soon too.....
10th December....He will be 3....
Anyway....
Had to get on and write how i was feeling....
Love and Peace
Alana
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
^i^ }i{ ^i^ }i{ ^i^ }i{ ^i^ }i{ ^i^
Wednesday, November 28, 2001 at 09:50 PM (West Aust)
Well.......
I have had a few better days!!!
The other day was just so hard....
I am hoping to make it to the Memorial Service....
Please let me make it!
Brandon has learnt to ride Kurtis' Wish Gift from Make A Wish......
He didn't quite make it to have his Full Wish......
It makes me cry to see him riding around.....
It is like Kurtis has helped Brandon to learn how to do it!!
He gets into high range and he is off!!!!
He loves it!!!
Kurtis loved it!!!
Well it is late......
Take Care everyone.....
Alana
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
^i^ }i{ ^i^ }i{ ^i^ }i{ ^i^
Sunday, November 25, 2001 at 10:45 PM (West Aust)
Hello Again...
Yes i am back!!!!
Today was a hard one.....
So many memories.....
Some were of the good times we all shared and some were of the bad.....
And some were new memories that were made......But without my precious Kurtis....
I really do miss him today....Not only today....Forever.....
I don't know where the time has gone......
It has been more than 9 months since the last time i held him....kissed him....touched him......
:-(
I am a little upset.....Yes....
These "holidays".....YUCK....
I want my little family back...
Please think of Kurtis....
Sign our book.....The messages help......
To know people care....Is a great feeling..
Take Care
Love and Peace
Alana
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Look to the sky....
You may see a rainbow passing by....
Thursday, November 22, 2001 at 04:30PM (West Aust )
Hello Again......
Yes i have returned!!!
I hope you like the 2 new photos that have been here for a few weeks now.....
I can't take down the first one....It is just too precious...
I am hoping to go to a Memorial Service being held in Perth.....Not far from Princess Margaret Hospital....Next month...
I am hoping....
Brandon is growing so quickly....
"My Story".....was in our latest newsletter that is run by Parents from our Ward who have also lost their children to Cancer/Luekemia....
I have had a little feed back.....
It is comforting to hear that others have had similar experiences.....
Well i must keep moving!
Take Care
Please think of Kurtis....
Please sign our guestbook....
Love to you all....
Alana
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Saturday, November 17, 2001 at 06:35 AM (West Aust)
Hello All.......
We have a bit of bad news......
Kurtis' other Rabbit Dougy died on Wednesday......
Both his rabbits are now reunited with him....
We buried them next to each other....
It was quite upsetting....
I kept my brave face.....
Brandon is a little confused because now there is no Bunny in the Bunny House.......
I feel terrible for him....
The house renovations are still in full swing.......I am looking forward to having my house back to "my house".......
The weather has been awful the last few days here.....
I hope everyone is travelling well.....
And Please don't forget.....
Remember Kurtis....
Love and Peace
Alana
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Sunday, November 11, 2001 at 2:08 PM (West Aust )
Hello to everyone...
Thanks for stopping by....
Our friends came to visit and have gone....
It was great to have them here but it was sad to see them leave....
I hope they enjoyed their stay here and that the rest of their holiday is enjoyable!
Brandon's 3rd Birthday is in a month and then Christmas....
I am not looking forward to the festive season this year...
I miss Kurtis so very much...
Trying to write cards is a nightmare...
I wanted to include Kurtis in some way....
I hope what i have done is ok....
I shouldn't worry about what others think!
If they don't like the idea of what I have done to include Kurtis..............Tough!!!
There you go I am standing up for what i believe in!!!!
I used to be so strong...
I will get there one day!!
Kurtis is a big inspiration....I owe him alot..
Well i think that is enough of my babbling...
Please think of families who have recently lost children to this disease...
And PLEASE think of Kurtis...
Love and Peace
Alana
xoxoxoxoxoxoxox
PS
There are new Photos!!!!!!
Bye!
Thursday, November 1, 2001 at 7:15 AM(West Aust)
Hello Everyone....
I am back again!!
I have had a few good days......
We have been gardening...It looks alot nicer and not so over grown!!
The garden definately needed some TLC!!!!
I think it helped me too!!
I have been reading also...Which has been good...
We are also excited because some friends of ours are coming to visit...They are travelling the same road that we are.....But their journey has only just begun.....It will be great to see them....
Brandon will enjoy the company of their other child also which will be good for them both....I think?
Well i must keep going....
Take Care Everyone
Love and Peace
Alana
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Tuesday, October 23, 2001 at 09:50 PM (West Aussie Time)
Well.....
I am back again!!!
I have ben quite busy.....Whats new!!
Brandon has been a normal little nearly 3 Year Old!!!.....What a horror!!!
Things here are ok!!
I have been having lots of memories.....
I miss Kurtis so very much.....
Some days it seems like a big dream but then the reality hits me in the head and i end up crying.....
I am always thinking of the "if only's"...
I know i am probably causing myself more grief but i just can't help it!!
Just to hold him again.....
To have a hug.....a kiss......
Here i am doing it to myself again!
Well i best go....
Try to get my head together!
It must be the time!
Night All.....
Love and Peace
Alana
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Tuesday, October 16, 2001 at 09:20 PM (West Aussie Time)
Another person we knew has died recently.....
We are having a bit of a bad run....
We are still quite busy.....
I have been thinking about Kurtis alot more...
Brandon is growing up so very fast....He will be three in December....The time has flown...
Before i know it Christmas will be here.....
AAARRRGGGHHHH....
That is a time i am not looking forward too...It is going to be hard....
I have been writting alot lately.....
And i have been looking for articles about grief etc.....
I am trying to help others by finding articles to share.....
If anyone out there knows of any good sites please let me know so i can pass on addresses....
Thanks so very much for stopping by.....
I am sure Kurtis appreciates it too....
Alana
Tuesday, September 18, 2001 at 6:00 PM (West Aust)
Hello to all.....
We have had some bad news recently....
Some very special friends lost their daughter to this evil disease.....
Kurtis now has another friend with him...
It has been very hard to cope with....
I have not been my normal self...
Brandon is fine....Growing up way to fast...
We are still keeping busy though...
Trying to rebuild some sort of a life without our precious Kurtis by our sides....
There are so many things......
I must go before i ramble on too much
Take care everyone
Thanks for stopping by
Love and Peace
Alana
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX
Saturday, September 08, 2001 at 10:06 PM (WEST AUST)
Hello to everyone.....
We survived Fathers Day.....Only just....
As i mentioned before we have some friends who are travelling a very rough road.....Things have become worse....
Please think of our friends.....
Brandon is advancing more and more every day....He is not our little baby anymore....
Many things are happening....So we are busy....
I have become more involved with a few things....I was too scared before....I am getting better.....
It is a very big step to go somewhere new and to meet new people....But i am slowly getting out there.....
I must go again....
Take care everyone....
Alana
Tuesday, August 28, 2001 at 06:50 AM (West Aust)
Hello Again.....
I have been trying to type for awhile....
Things have been hard lately.....Yet again....Kurtis'other rabbit "Dougy" has been having fits.....He is old.....And probably missing his brother "Piggy".
Some friends of ours are traveling a hard road at the moment also.
We are trying to be of some support to them....
Thats all i can say for now....
Alana
Tuesday, August 07, 2001 at 04:45 PM (West Aust)
On Sunday the 5th August we found one of Kurtis' pet rabbits dead.
"Piggy" has died. He was a white rabbit and very beautiful,he was about 3 and a half. We buried him under some trees in our yard and covered his little grave with granite rocks.
He will be sadly missed.
"Dougy" is ok....Gone off his food though.
Brandon is looking and looking for him....
It is very sad.
He has gone to join Kurtis.
Just wanted to let you know where we are at....
Take care
Alana
Saturday, August 04, 2001 at 1:00 PM (West Aust)
Well.....
I am back again...
This past week has been hard.....
This Monday is quite scary.....It will mark exactly 6 Months since we lost Kurtis.
I can't believe it has been 6 months....
I am sure i have lost many of those months....
I hope the day is beautiful and that there is a rainbow at some stage......
The weather has been great for rainbows lately.....Lots of rain....but we need it!!
Brandon is growing up way to fast....He is helping alot more with things....But he still can be a terror!!!
Things are still hard to do....Some days there is no energy and others you can't stop me....
I guess it's just the ups and down's....
Well i must go again...
I am getting better at updating here!!!
Love to you all....
Alana
Saturday, July 28, 2001 at 12:12 PM (WEST AUST)
Well where do i begin....
I am very sorry i have not been here for awhile i have checked in but have not had the energy to write...
We have just moved again and have had many problems settling in.....
My days are a mixture of ups and downs and some days are very very hard...
Brandon is doing very well....I think he has bad days also!!. But he is at the "Age"!!!! He will be 3 in December....Time has flown....
This coming week it has been 6 months since we lost our precious Kurtis...
I don't know where the time has gone...We have moved twice and many other things have happened...
The pain hasn't got any easier it still hurts and aches and let me tell you the tears are still there...
We have a few more animals now....let me list them off!!!!
2 Cats..."Bruce"(Kurtis' Cat) and "Milamber"(Andrew's Cat)
2 Rabbits..."Piggy" and "Dougy"(Kurtis' also!)
1 Dog..."Angel"
10 Chooks....Too many to name!!!
1 Lamb...."Tickles"(Brandon's)
and about 15 Fish!!!!!
Then we have the Cows and Calves!!!!
This bunch does keep us busy!!!!
And Brandon really loves them all!!
We had a drama 2 weeks ago when "Bruce" went missing....We found him luckily!!!
Well we are hanging in there and things are good we have each other and that is all that matters....
We are still a family and we must go on not only for Brandon and ourselves but it is what Kurtis would want us to do....
I can hear him telling me...."Don't worry Mummy everything will be ok".....
He was very wise....
I miss him very much
We all do....
Monday, June 04, 2001 at 5:07 PM(West Aust Time)
Today has been great!
I am busy getting ready for our next move...
I was driving around getting things done and it was raining and cold.....
I stopped for awhile and there in the sky a Double Rainbow.....It was beautiful....
It was Kurtis....
I said out loud "There's Kurtis".....
Brandon and my Husband were there....
It was perfect....
This definately was a better day....
Take care everyone
Alana
Thursday, May 24, 2001 at 05:07 PM (Western Australia)
Hello All
Thanks for coming to Kurtis' Page
We are still battling along,this road is very hard,very sad and very lonely.
Without Kurtis the world seems so far away...
We as a family have had a hard time dealing with his loss....He was our life....His treatment was our life.....Now everything is nothing....there is no routine....no doctors appointments.....no hospital visits.....nothing.
Everyone has gone.....up untill two weeks after Kurtis' death we had a handful of people who came to see us......
Since then there has been nothing....
I don't mind this i would rather be by myself....I have got used to it....
But it just seems so wrong.....
I would think people would call in to see if we are ok....We haven't.
There are a few people that have said to me that i can do things for me.....to put Brandon in Daycare etc.....
I wouldn't do that to him.....
I can't do that to me......
I have lost my eldest son.....In a sense i have lost my husband to work.....I am not losing my youngest son just so i can have "time to myself".....
I am used to being by myself with my family....
I don't know.....Maybe i have it all wrong......
This will have to do for now
Take care everyone
Alana
Saturday, May 19, 2001 at 08:47 PM(West Aussie)
Well i am back again......
Today i had a good cry and whinge to myself!!
Talking everything through in my brain....
Brandon was good today...sort of....
A normal 2 and a half year old!!!!!
I keep trying to tell myself that things will get better...They don't seem to be getting easier though.
I just wanted to check in here
I will be off again now
bye
Wednesday, May 16, 2001 at 10:15 PM (Western Australia)
Today was an ok day.....
That is a change!!....Trust me!
I did some fun stuff with Brandon.....
We made Drums out of boxes and ice-cream containers and had wooden spoons for drumsticks....We also made a shaker/rattle with two plastic cups and rice(with lots of tape).
It was fun....these are things i use to do with Kurtis...
But then i started thinking about those fun times and got upset that i am unable to do fun things like that with him anymore....
Everything is just so unfair.
Kurtis was my first child and i am just having a hard time letting go/getting used to not having him here with me and his dad and brother.
Well i best be going again
It's late
Hello to everyone and thanks for stopping by to see how we are going
Love Alana
Sunday, May 13, 2001 at 14:45 PM (West Aust)
Well today is Mothers Day......
What a day.....
I am very sad to say the least....I didn't have Kurtis to do his little things for me...
.......Brandon has been great giving me hugs and kisses but......It's just not the same without Kurtis.
This sucks so much....
As you can tell i am not very cheerful!!
I should have waited before i got on here but this is how i am feeling right now.....
I don't want another mother to go through what i am feeling right now.....
I am sorry but i think i should go....
I can't see the screen through my tears....
I love you Kurtis...I love you
Wednesday, May 09, 2001 at 04:46 PM (West Australian Time)
Hello to everyone.....
We are travelling ok...considering.....I am not looking forward to Mothers day.....I should be happy i have Brandon but i feel lost without my Kurtis.
He made me a Mother....He helped mould me into the Mother i am today.....He was my very First Baby....Child....Son.....
I miss him dearly.....
Brandon is a saviour......
But i find myself comparing him to Kurtis....
They look very much alike......
AAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH
I feel very guilty doing this but i just.......I don't know......I can't help it....
I guess these are normal feelings....
Well i must go again......
Thursday, April 19, 2001 at 06:50 AM West Aust
I have been checking in here every couple of days but i just didn't know what to type....
I have been pretty sad the last few days because all I seem to think about is Kurtis.
I have been listening to his favourite music....I got enough courage together to watch the last lot of video footage we have of him....I am continually talking to him....Crying...Crying...
All i seem to be able to do well is cry.
Brandon is being good and bad....He can be so sweet and then turn so bad....I have guessed it is his way of letting me know he is missing Kurtis also.
He is making me smile though....When i used to cry around Kurtis he would say to me "Everything will be ok Mummy", and then he would get me a Tissue and give me a Hug and a Kiss and then a Squeezy Hug. Brandon comes up to me and Kisses me and Hugs me....He isn't quite talking full on yet!!....This to me is like Kurtis is still around in Brandon...Guiding him...To help me...
Well as you can probably guess the tears are rolling down my face...I couldn't see the keyboard or screen for a brief moment!!
I will try to update more regulary
Thank you for all the kind words of support.
Sunday, March 11, 2001 at 10:20 PM (W.Aust)
Well today has been fairly quiet here...
Yesterday was hard...It was my Birthday and was very hard not having Kurtis there to sing to me like he did last year....To have him not there to give me a squeezy hug and a kiss.....
I will never get used to not having him there to hold....
Sunday, March 11, 2001 at 10:20 PM (W.Aust)
Well today has been fairly quiet here...
Yesterday was hard...It was my Birthday and was very hard not having Kurtis there to sing to me like he did last year....To have him not there to give me a squeezy hug and a kiss.....
I will never get used to not having him there to hold....
Sunday, March 11, 2001 at 10:20 PM (W.Aust)
Well today has been fairly quiet here...
Yesterday was hard...It was my Birthday and was very hard not having Kurtis there to sing to me like he did last year....To have him not there to give me a squeezy hug and a kiss.....
I will never get used to not having him there to hold....
Thursday, March 08, 2001 at 07:34pm (W.Australian)
Today has been a struggle.....
I am trying to do things but nothing is interesting me....
I am trying to make this page work....
Hopefully i will figure it out.....
My brain isn't focusing....some would say my brain never focuses!!!!
Well Brandon is yelling..argh!!!!
Hope you like the photos.....
I have so many it was a hard decision to pick which ones to put on here!!!!
Thursday, March 08, 2001 at 07:14pm (W.Australian)
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