I only tonight got around to reading the entry that Tom made after the carnival. I have been unable to bring myself to sit at the computer pretty much since Austin's death, but I am slowly trying to get myself back to this site for all of the strength that is has given me over the last 2 1/2 years. I am including a note that I wrote to thank the many people who made the carnival possible. I realize that some of it is redundant but I didn't know the content of Tom's message until now. I apologize for not making this thank you to all of you sooner. I had such a wonderful time at the carnival that I was absolutely exhausted when it ended. I felt the glory of Austin's life that night in the joy on every face there. It seems that every single activity was kept hopping for the majority of the night, even all of the new events: Massage, tennis, air brush tattoos, dunk tank, t-shirt sales, live music, and the silent auction. Once again there were so many people there that I know that I did not get around to greeting all of you. But I can't thank you enough for easing the pain that has been building for so long. All of the events to celebrate Austin have kept the pain at least partially at bay. Needless to say the morning after the carnival the pain was as intense as ever. It intensified still further with the blessing of the new St Toms on Sunday, and then on Monday we were off on vacation for a week. It was great to have family time, but at the same time we all remarked regularly about what things Austin would have enjoyed. So please forgive me if I am still slow about expressing my immense gratitude for all that you have done to celebrate Austin's life. The carnival was amazing, and it was all Austin. Unfortunately I know that every day will not be like this. The pain rollercoaster is one that I have to ride, whether I want to or not. So continue to hold us all in your prayers. Ignore us if we are snippy, and share your memories whenever you feel like it. If you happen upon a picture of Austin please send me a copy, and most of all remember to relish today. Love, Fran
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